I haven’t updated this blog very much lately because I’ve been busy with the other blog for Susan’s case, plus all the regular efforts to find her. Also, I’ve found myself in a sad and strange situation.
When Susan disappeared nearly 4 months ago, mine and my family’s life got put on hold. Every thought, word, effort, and breath was all about Susan. I spent all my time doing everything I could to keep her in the news, help the police in any way possible, and do all I could to find my friend.
My family suffered, of course, both my husband and kids and my extended family. I kept them fed and clothed but everything else was a bare minimum.
On Tuesday it will be exactly 4 months since Susan disappeared. Nothing has changed for me—I still think of her with every thought and am still doing all I can to find her. But I’ve had to return to “normal” life in some ways, for the sake of my children, who need me, and my husband and other family members.
I’ve hesitated to post anything on my blog since Susan disappeared that wasn’t about her. But the whole reason I started a blog was so our relatives and friends who live farther away and can’t be with our family as often as they’d like to could be a little more in touch with our lives. So I guess now the blog will need to also struggle to find a balance between Susan-postings and bits from our lives, much as I am now struggling to do myself every day.
It’s very hard to cook a nice dinner for my family and fold laundry when my mind and heart are so grief-stricken that my friend is still gone. As much as I love my kids, it’s hard to give them undivided attention for hours when all I can think about is Susan.
But the last thing she would want is for my family or anyone else to suffer on her behalf, so we do what we can to continue our efforts to find her and still take care of our responsibilities and priorities.
I update the Service for Susan blog regularly on the latest news and activities surrounding Susan’s case and disappearance, so check there often if you’re not on the Friends and Family of Susan Powell Facebook group.
I hope everyone has enjoyed a sweet and peaceful Easter, surrounded by loved ones, and remembering the Savior…He who makes it possible for all of us to live again.
Art by the ultra-talented Simon Dewey; picture from Bev’s Country Cottage, a great charity website full of knitting and crochet patterns and other cool stuff.